Heading in to a tough weekend...

My parents are coming this weekend, which means lots of meals out: Friday, Saturday, and Sunday brunch. I'm dreading it. Saturday will be my splurge day with a nice dinner out with Doug. But I need to get through the other meals unscathed. I wanted Lebanese Taverna tonight but instead we went to my mom's friend's house for dinner. I think I did okay. I skipped my oatmeal this morning to have extra points.

7:00 JW upper and lower body--felt like a rockstar getting through both this morning...This week I've exercised 5 times!!

8:00
cereal, mango, milk: 4.5

(skipped oatmeal... saving points for dinner... hungry!!)

12:00
zucchini with drizzle of OO, turkey sandwich with mayo: 6.5

1:30
plum: .5

4:45
1/2 banana: 1

6:00
eggplant parm (not fried, just baked, a little ground turkey, homemade sauce and skim mozzarella--and not much of it. No idea how to count this. I had a small piece. It was delicious. I think 5 points...), salad w/lite dressing (she didn't have OO!), green beans: 6

7:00
home made peach pie, small piece: 5

Even with all that, I have some points leftover!! And a good thing too... b/c I'm HUNGRY. What's the best snack for 1.5 points?? I should have cottage cheese... I'll go over by .5 but it'll help me feel full...

8:00 cottage cheese: 2

Thursday

7:00
cereal, milk, berries: 4.5

10:15
oatmeal, milk: 4

11:45
salmon: 4

1:30
zucchini, cherries: 1

3:30
plum: .5

4:15
cottage cheese: 2

5:15
apple: .5

6:30
lentils, chicken: 6

skinny cow: 2

JW getting easier?

I did upper and lower body today and I swear it was a little easier. Still, kicked my behind. I'm still considering doing the core... but will likely skip since a friend is coming at 11:30 for lunch and I need to shower.

7:30
cereal, milk, berries: 4.5

10 JW

11:45
handful of crunchy curls: 1

Friend came over for lunch... mini splurge
bread (2), honey maple turkey (3), avocado (1), lite mayo (1), crunchy curls (2), cherries (.5), 1/2 ice cream sandwich: 10

3:10
yogurt, wheat germ: 3

4:00 watermelon: 1

5:30
lentils, chicken: 6

Rats... used all my points... and it's 8 o'clock and I want something... I might go for some watermelon.
25.5

Tuesday

So, yesterday I didn't feel so well. I got my period in the evening, which partially explains the pimples on my forehead, and some of the ill feelings. But I have also come to the realization that my GI tract may not appreciate cucumbers as much as my weight-loss-focused brain. I can't think of what else might have caused the gurgles... I peeled the damn thing, thinking that maybe the roughage-y and waxy peel was the culprit. No difference. So... today, I did eat a few cukes (yesterday there was a whole one cut up for lunch) but as part of a larger salad.

Any other thoughts as to what might be going on here?

Oh, and seriously--were period pains this bad before I had a baby?? They totally feel like contractions. CRAZY.

7:15
cereal, milk, berries: 4.5

10:15
oatmeal, milk, cherries: 4.5

1:30
salmon, salad w/cherries and pistachios: 5.5

3:30
apple: .5

14 eaten...not sure what to do for dinner since I don't feel so good... I think I'll defrost some homemade chicken soup...

Why we are fat

New Yorker has a nice breakdown of all of Jenna's favorite books about appetite, food, weight....

Exercise is the norm

I'm feeling more and more like exercise is juts part of my life. I'm not dreading it. I'm not bored by it (though reading the New Yorker on the elliptical certainly helps). I feel like this is a real breakthrough...

Yesterday I wore a size 12 pencil skirt to work. For the most part felt rather slim, even though my tummy was still bulging out a bit... not obscenely, just not flat.

Compliments rock

Last night after my post went up about the weekend, the phone rang. It was one of the women from the BBQ. She called to tell me how great I looked. Whatever you're doing is definitely working, she said. I was so pleased because you know... no one said anything to me at the BBQ. One of my friends commented earlier in the day--we went to the gym together--but none of the others. So, I was very touched that Lis took the time to call and let me know.

Of course, that high was smashed down by two middle of the night wakings by my clearly teething boy. So this morning I just couldn't bring myself to exercise... instead, I went at lunch and did the cross-training setting on the elliptical machine. Total of 35 minutes. So, I'm on track for 5 days of exercise this week...

7:15
cereal, berries, milk: 4.5

11:00
oatmeal, milk, cherries: 4.5

1:00
35 min elliptical

1:45
small can tuna; 4 wasa; veggies: 5

3:30
yogurt, blueberries: 3

5:00
apple: .5

6:00
pretzel: .5
salmon, 2/3 sweet potato, salad w/cherries, pistacios, 1/4 avocado, and OO: 10

Went over by 2.5... salmon gets me every time. I was already nearly done with my sweet potato before I realized I was going over... the salad was also "dressed" tonight... felt like a little splurge with teh avocado and nuts... It's okay... no biggie...

Sunday, splurge and 169

I have broken the 160s barrier with a round 169 on the scale this morning. Yay me!

Then I went to the gym and did 50 minutes of cardio, crazy high-tech super hard eliptical machine and then treadmill. Then did some core stuff. Swimming lessons with Michael and Doug. Lunch at home with Doug while M napped. Then 2.5 hours at the mall and bought some cute interim stuff for me. A tahari dress and t-shirt, two pairs of long shorts and two tops--one t-shirt, one fancier. Spent less than $100. CRAZY SALES.... then home, played, showered, baked spanikopita before heading to the BBQ... now home... put M to bed and it's 8:40. Lunches aren't packed... nothing is ready for tomorrow. But, we had a great weekend.

7:30
cereal, milk, berries: 4.5

50 min cardio; core

9:40
banana, coffee: 2

11:30
1/2 Zbar: 1

12:00
1.5 egg & egg white omelet with low-fat chedder and lots of veggies, high-fiber english muffin, olio: 8

4:00
cottage cheese: 2

6:00
spinach dip, pita chips, carrots, 1.5 pieces spanikopita, bun, hamburger (yum), pickles, etc, 1/4 c cole slaw, 1.5 small sized brownies, 1 oreo cheesecake (make in cupcake tins--super yum!), watermelon. Drank water and diet coke.

I have no idea how many points this was... the spinach dip wasn't really worth it... but everything else: awesome. I skipped the beer and didn't have cheese on my burger.

The Weekend

Saturday morning I went to WW and the grocery store. Motivated by my loss last month I bought a ton of fruits and vegetables.

Doug and I went to see the new Harry Potter movie. It was great! We were supposed to go for ice cream afterward but it was raining out and we both wanted to get home to Michael (and to save the extra $10 we'd owe the babysitter).... So, that means I'll take my splurge day tomorrow at a BBQ.

8:00
cereal, milk, blueberries: 4.5

11:30
yogurt, berries, 1/2 c cereal: 3.5

JW lower and upper body

1:45
bread (2 pieces), chicken salad I made with leftovers from last night, pea pods: 5

(eaten 13)

4:00
canalini beans (how do you spell that legume?) 2

5:45
2 pc bread, chicken salad, corn: 7

10:15
skinny cow: 2

1 left over!

Down 5.4!!!

I went to WW this morning...down 5.4 pounds from last month!!

End of the week, must exercise more

I skipped exercise today, and yesterday. Although I would like to think 4 days/week is enough, it's probably not. But I have so little time to myself that sometimes I just want to squander it. Like this morning. I could have squeezed in one JW session, but didn't.

Still, I want to be losing faster. I know I've accomplished a lot so far, but I'm not done... I'm not even quite 1/2 way to the goal I set of 158. I went to try on some clothes tonight at Lucy. I didn't really love anything there... The size L were fine, fit just right (which made me feel better that I didn't need an XL). But nothing looked fabulous... I just remember Jenna's realization when she tried on clothes at some mid-point and everything looked better...

Also, now that I"m back into some of my regular clothes, I'm realizing they are kind of shabby... and I'm feeling like I can't really spend the money on beautiful clothes, especially with a toddler who will smear me with something. There's got to be a happy medium. I'll plan to wait another month, and drop another few inches before I buy clothes. Both my mom and my mother-in-law are giving me money for my birthday so I can save that for a little shopping spree... and hopefully with the back-to-school sales I'll get some bargains (though....Nordstroms is having their sale now).

7:15
egg, toast, 1/2 c blueberries, 1/2 c. whole milk: 5
(Michael left over his yummy whole milk so I dumped it in my coffee)

10:15
oatmeal, milk, dried cherries: 5

walked up to 8th floor from lobby

12:20
veggies; apple: .5

1:00
ate handfuls in the car of the lentil crunchies (was starving from delaying lunch...): 3

1:30
ratatouille: 2

3:30
peach: .5

5:00
yogurt: 2

6:30
rotisserie chicken (breast), carrot salad, corn: 6
frozen fruit bar: 1

Thursday

I was exhausted last night and went to bed at 8:15. Doug says it was the exercise, in combination with taking care of Michael for most of the day... he did not nap. I must work on him sleeping in his crib during the day...

7:15
egg & egg white, toast, grapes: 4

11:30
white bean soup; salad w/cannelini beans: 5
(not sure how to count the soup... but since it's a bean puree I think maybe 4 points for a 1 c serving... )

12:30
peach: 1

2:45
yogurt: 2
Still hungry...
apple: 1

4:15
cookie from M's daycare... why? B/c it was in the car: 6
(I was low on points so even that 6 pt cookie didn't wreck my day!)

6:15
ratatouille, 1.5 c: 3 (?)

8:45
1/2 c cereal w/milk: 3

Wed and back to JW & walk (27 points)

I'm set to do JW this morning... just waiting for my cereal to digest a little...

I think I need to start measuring my cereal in the morning... but for today, ignorance is bliss and I'm counting it as 2 pts.

8:00
cereal, milk, berries: 5

JW upper body and core

11:30
yogurt, wheat germ, 1/2 banana: 3
handful of pretzels: 1

12:30
salad w/dressing, few cherries, few beans, 1/2 can tuna: 5
fruit: 1

3 mi walk w/stroller

5:00
peach: 1
1/2 slice cheese: 1
pretzel: 2
1/2 c. white bean soup: 2

6:30
2 veggie burgers, corn on the cob, 1/2 c peas: 6

I squandered points in the early evening. I was HUNGRY but couldn't come up with a good idea for a snack. I should have just had dinner early!!

I nursed 2 extra times today... so i think this all balances out.

Though... I've noticed that lately I am wanting to eat more salty bready things...

Tuesday, hurt muscle, stupid dinner

My groin muscle hurts! I first noticed it on Saturday while I was doing the lower body workout with Jackie Warner--yes, I'm a little obsessed. I tried to modify the exercises and continue with the routine. Probably I should have stopped. It didn't bother me again until this morning. I think I'm not stretching enough... So, I've loaded up on the advil and I didn't do any exercise this morning. I'll do upper body and core with JW tomorrow but what else... how do I rebound from this injury???

Meanwhile, I'm feeling queasy and tired this morning. We weren't up that late (9:45, to finish watching a movie) but it took me at least an hour or more to fall asleep...

I'll sit tight and sip water for now... later will get some oatmeal to see if that will help.

7:20
cereal, berries, milk: 5

10:30
oatmeal, milk, cherries: 4.5

1:00
homemade chicken soup with some noodles; bowtie pasta and sauce 1c: 6

4:00
yogurt: 2

6:30--not feeling so hot. again. what gives?? is it something I'm eating??? So, I made poor choices for dinner since I didn't want to eat more progresso high salt soup...

toast w/brummel; banana, 1/2 c white bean soup, pretzels: 9
(maybe over counting... but not sure. So, over by 5.5 points. So stupid. I'm not even full. Okay, lesson is buy chicken noodle low-salt soup to have in the pantry.)

Monday--trying to eat 25 pts

Jenna suggested to eat 25 points instead of 28 on the days I only nurse 3 times... today is my first attempt. I realize that I needed more veggies or something at dinner b/c at 8 o'clock I"m hungry. Going to get a peach now...

All this fretting about the scale has me second guessing everything. I need to just not think about it, and not weigh myself... going to WW on Saturday morning. I will not get on a scale between now and then.

6:30
cereal, berries, milk: 4.5

30 min walk

10:30
oatmeal, milk, cherries: 4.5

1:15
pasta, turkeyballs, sauce, zucchini, salad: 7
diet coke

(it's 3:40 and I'm amazed that I am not hungry...)

4:30
peach: 1

6:30
1 garden burger, 1 mushroom burger, corn, tomato wedges, 1/2 c homemade chicken broth with few noodles, carrots, celery: 7

8
peach: 1

New plan of attach

Jenna suggested to drop down to 25 points on week days I only nurse 3 times. Seems do-able especially since I've been having a point or two left over lately...

I don't feel like I've lost enough weight to be on a plateau yet.

Everyone has been so supportive of me during this weekend of frustration. Thanks!

Sunday...

9:00
cereal, milk, berries: 4.5

11:30
1 bite Doug's beneigt: 1
bites of graham cracker/whole milk in coffee: 1

walked around dupont circle...

1:00
salad w/dressing, toast, tuna (no mayo), tomato: 5
peach: 1
pretzels: 1

walked to and from splash park

5:00
z bar: 2

6:30
1 c pasta, sauce, 3 turkey meatballs, salad w/oo: 9
watermelon: 1

mango fruit bar: 1
pretzels: 3
I ate the rest of my points... why?? Because... I had them...

I hate the scale

it said 171.5 this morning. What gives??

Wearing size 14 pre-preg shorts today. They are looser than they were two weeks ago. Wearing nursing tank and size S banana tank top.

Still, feeling frustrated.

Sat

8:00
cereal, berries, milk: 4.5

11:30
egg & egg whites, toast, olio: 4
1/2 peach

Walk around Cabin John park with M & D

2:30
Z bar: 2

3:30
2 Jackie Warner installments--upper and lower body

5:00
yogurt, wheat germ, peach: 3

6:00
pretzels: 2

7:00
1 c barilla plus pasta, 3 turkey meatballs w 1/2 c sauce: 8
salad with olive oil: 1

8:30
mango fruit bar: 2

2 leftover.

Friday, exercised at work

I'm tired from being up late last night. And I skipped the gym this morning since M & D didn't leave until 7:10... it's really best if they leave at 7 and I'm exercising by 7:10. But, I could have moved a little faster this morning to help them get out the door...

I think I'll head down to the gym in the basement at work to do 20-30 minutes on the treadmill at lunch. It's going to be a scorcher today so no walking outside.

I'm feeling down today about the whole stagnation. Probably due to lack of sleep. I need to shake it off....

I also forgot my microwave safe bowl for oatmeal. So annoying...

6:45
cereal, milk, berries: 5

11
oatmeal, milk, cherries: 5

12:30 30 min elliptical machine

1:15
veggies... I brought tuna but no can opener... not sure what I'll do for lunch at this point.

1:30 2 oz tuna --found can opener; 4 pieces wasa, small cup miso soup: 4

3:00
hot coco: 2

4:45
peach, yogurt: 3

6:30
chicken noodle soup from balducci's, 2 pieces toast with olio: 7 (?)

2 leftover went to bed early

Can't sleep

I went to get coffee with my new intern at 5 pm. I forgot to order
decaf. So here I am at 11:30. Not tired. I took a benadryl. Nada. This
totally stinks. Sitting in the dark, posting from my blackberry while
M and D snooze.

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Thursday food log

7:15
cereal, milk, berries: 5

10:45
oatmeal, milk, cherries: 5
(today I'm overestimating points... maybe I haven't been counting accurately enough??)

12:45
1.25 c. chicken stir fry with veggies: 5

4:00
yogurt & apple: 3

5:15
iced americano at starbucks with milk and 1 pump of flavored syrup: 1.5 (I forgot to say decaf so I'm probably going to be up till 2 in the morning!!!!)

6:30
1/2 c lentils, 3/4 c. chicken: 5
grapes: 1

2.5 left for the day...

Still 170

So I got on the scale again this morning, thinking that Tuesday night's soup incident would have run its course and I would see a big payoff for my perfect week of eating and exercise. No dice. Scale still said 170. Actually, it said 170.5.

What gives??? I am totally following the program. I exercised 5 days last week. People are making comments to me nearly every day that I look great/persistence is paying off.

So??? I know, I know... don't let the scale be your higher power. This is the 1st week in a long time that I haven't seen a loss on the scale. For some reason I thought I was immune to the plateau because of the exercise.

Probably the exercise is part of the reason there was no shift. Jackie Warner twice this week means that I'm building muscle, which weighs more than fat, but takes up less room.. yadda yadda yadda.

I just want to see my number, goddammit!!

Dear Lord!

I just checked the sodium level for the soup I had last night: 680 mg per SERVING! I had two servings. AAACK!!!!

I'm HORRIFIED. I knew it tasted salty but this is ridiculous.

Going to refill my water glass...

Working from home day...

8:00
cereal, berries, milk: 4.5

10:00
Jackie Warner, baby!!! upper body and lower body...Took breaks in between to work, swap out laundry... planning to do abs before end of day...

11:00
1 c cantaloupe: 1

11:20
1/2 c brown rice, 1 c mixed veggies stir fry with little chicken and few cashews: 5

12:20
salad w/2 tsp dressing: 2

2:00
yogurt, honey, 1/2 c cereal: 4 (splurge... but whatever. I did Jackie Warner today!)

3:30
peach: .5

7:00
Moroccan chicken and 1/2 c lentils (6) and salad (0)

leaves me with 2 to play with...

I blame the soup (170 again)

Scale this morning flickered 168, then 169.5 but landed at 170.0. I think this is the same as last week. Maybe down .5... but last night for dinner I ate the progresso soup. It was SO SALTY. I was ready to be in the 160s as of today but I have been vexed by the soup!

Working from home today. Plan to do the Jackie Warner video after breakfast...

Tuesday: 30 min walk

6:30
cereal, milk, berries: 4.5

30 min walk outside. how lovely!

11:00
oatmeal, milk, cherries: 4.5

1:00 -- not feeling so hot. skipping my packed lunch of salad and feta chicken...
yogurt, 2 wasa: 3

a little hungry but not sure what I feel like eating. I really just want something bready... :(

4:30
peach, wasa: 1.5
1 bite of cake: 1 (why? not sure... red velvet. It was good.)

6:00
soup (progresso... I think 1 pt for whole can??), toast w/B&B, bite of M's granola bar, 1/2 banana: 4.5

9 points left... I won't eat them all, of course. Maybe another piece of toast.

Okay, I wrote this and then Michael cried in his crib for 30 minutes at bed time until I finally went to get him. I rocked him for 5 minutes but still when I went to put him back in his bed, hysterics. So, I brought him to our bed and lay down with him. He was asleep in 5 minutes. I started to doze myself. Eventually Doug took M back to his crib and I got up to brush teeth and then back to bed. It's so nice to go to sleep early! Though of course this isn't good for sleep training. M was up again at 2:30... he must be teething. Ordinarily he never wakes up in the middle of the night anymore.

Annoyed

Last night I met a friend out. She needed dinner but I had already eaten. I only went over by about 1 pt but I'm still annoyed.

1. I went over on food that was only okay.
2. I spent what felt like gobs of money for gazpacho that wasn't good, a bite of spinach artichoke dip and 2 shrimp.
3. I was out late.

Now, the successes: I only ate 1 bite of the dip. But honestly? I wasn't even tempted. I didn't have any wine... I did quite well! So why am I annoyed? I spent $30. I'm feeling totally stressed about money and the future. And I was away from Doug and Michael. Now, you would think that having alone time with a friend would be a good thing. I do really like this person, but she's not a close friend. So instead of enjoying a girls' night out I was feeling resentful. And went to bed later than I like to...

I want to make time for myself apart from my family, but it needs to be with people who I really cherish!

Monday: 29 pts

7:00
cereal, milk, fruit: 5

10:30
oatmeal, milk, dried cherries: 4.5

12:30
salad, 1/2 of large piece of feta chicken, diet coke: 3.5
(very pleased with myself for eating only 1/2!)

3:30
yogurt, wheat germ: 2

5:30 small apple: .5

6:30
1 c brown rice, chicken stir fry w/lots veggies: 9

8:30
out with friend at Daily Grill... ate 1 bite bread/spinach dip. 2 shrimp, gazpacho, and 1 bite bread w/butter (channeling Carrie?)... I think it was probably 4 points.

Off the schedule

Today I was supposed to go exercise in the morning while Doug was running with Michael. Instead, I slept. From 7:15 to 9:20. I guess I was tired. But now, I feel like my day is off. I will exercise later but I'm frustrated that it didn't happen when I had planned.

Sunday: 1 hour exercise!

6:15
cereal, berries, fruit, milk: 6

9:30
egg & egg white, toast: 3

12:00
tuna, bread, 1/2 apple: 5

1:30--did the exercise video--1 hour!

3:40
yogurt, blueberries, wheat germ: 3

5:30
3/4 brown rice, chicken stir fry with veggies and cashews (I didn't measure my portion... should have, of course), few cashews while cooking: 10

I might have over counted the stir fry (6). Rice was definitely 3 pts. I figure better safe than sorry.

60 cal sherbert bar: 2?
handful of those lenil flour crips from TJ: 1

(went over by 2... dumb... but so much exercise!!)

Saturday

8:00 cereal, milk: 4

Walk to and from farmers' market & playground...

12:00 yogurt & wheat germ: 2

I need some real food!!! Must go see what is available...

12:30
1 c barilla plus pasta (4), 3 turkey meatballs (3) and sauce w/squash (1): 8

4:00 3 honey wheat pretzels: 1

6:30
1 c barilla pasta (4), 2 meatballs and sauce (3): 7
salad with oil: 1

8:30
2 pt choc pop

I think I ate some fruit too... but can't remember now (only a day later--crazy). Still, I have at least 2 points remaining...

Summer morning walk

I took Jenna's advice and got out of the house for a walk this morning. It was beautiful out! The air was cool and crisp. I picked a hilly route that ended at Starbucks, where I got an iced coffee. I walked about 25 minutes. I would have liked to go for 30. Next time I'll make a little detour to add on a few minutes.

Now I'm at my desk and feeling refreshed. I have an appointment for a hair cut at noon with a new guy. Why is it so hard to find a good hairdresser??

6:30
cereal, milk: 4

walk: 25 minutes... hilly

10:30
oatmeal, milk, dried cherries: 5

1:30
chili, zucchini:, cut up veggies: 5

5:30
2 small peaches: 1

13 points remaining! So, we're having pasta for dinner. Normally I avoid pasta b/c I think it's not worth the calories. But tonight we'll have turkey meat balls in Newman's own sauce with a cup of pureed butternut squash mixed in. The pasta is Barilla's whole wheat + protein. It's higher in calories--210 with 2 grams fat and 4 grams protein. I looked online and saw that it's 4 points for a serving but how much is 2 oz cooked?? 1 cup? 1/2 cup?

1 c pasta: 4; 1/2 sauce with squash: 1; 4 turkey meatballs: 4 (9 total)
watermelon: 1

New Day... many compliments

Today I am wearing pre-pregnancy pants! My favorite "magic" black pants. They are a little more form fitting than I like but totally wear-able. I'm also in a pre-preg size S blouse. Jenna says I'm looking good. But others, who don't know what I'm up to, have also complimented me today--and it's only 10 a.m.!

I'm feeling good about that.

I skipped the workout this morning since I had styled my hair last night for this high school alumni thing I went to... I'll go tomorrow morning instead. And, my new exercise DVD is shipping today. I must go buy some cheap 5 lb weights. I think a trip to Target is in my future...

I know that in the beginning I was desperate for results. I feel like finally--nearly 2 months later--I'm finally seeing the payoff of this investment. It will probably take the rest of the summer, and most of September, before the scale showes 158. My friend Elise says don't race the scale, and don't let the scale be your higher power... both very wise bits of advise... I'm trying to follow that...

Meanwhile, I'm thinking about what I really want to do in life, and such... I think maybe it's time to start a new craft project. Maybe that will make me feel better...

Food today:

7:15
cereal, milk, berries, few slices banana: 5 (I've cut back on the milk in my coffee and so am not counting it anymore...)

10:45
oatmeal, milk, cherries: 4.5

12:20
veggies, feta chicken: 5

diet coke

Felt full after that lunch. Not uncomfortable, but it's now 3:30 and I'm still not ready for my snack.

5:00
apple & peach: 1

6:30
1 c chili, corn on the cob: 7

8:15
yogurt, 1 tbsp honey, 1/4 c fiber one: 4

One point left over. :)

Wednesday, part 2

With 8 points left for the day, this is what I ate:

3:15 plate of cut up veggies

4:30 yogurt, wheat germ, drop of maple syrup: 3

5:00 chicken breast:3

7:00 plate of veggies

8:30 skinny cow: 2

Stayed within my points. Now, going to bed.

groove and regret (170)

I weighed myself today--170, after breakfast but with no clothes on. Feeling rather accomplished. That's down 9 pounds. I need to just keep doing what I'm doing. I did notice yesterday that I felt like doing more cheating--little nibbles of Michael's untouched ravioli (what is the matter with this kid??).

Today will be hard too. I'm going to lunch at Wendy's house and she has left-over deli from the bris... I'm thinking I might just bring my own food. Otherwise, I'll eat a lot of points, for not a lot of substance, and then I'll be upset with myself.

I worked out this morning: 32 minutes on the elliptical machine then weights--legs, chest, arms, shoulders, abs. Not a ton of stuff, but enough... two sets of everything. Three sets would have been better but I didn't feel like staying down there that long. :(

6:30
cereal, milk, berries: 4

32 min cardio, weights: chest, legs/butt, shoulders, triceps, abs

10:30
toast, egg&white, watermelon: 4

I went to Wendy's for lunch and ate too much. I think this is the first time that's happened to me since I started this whole thing. And I didn't really even eat THAT much. But I don't feel good. Here's the tally:

1/2 c chicken salad; 1.5 pieces rye toast; spoonful of coleslaw (why? it wasn't even good), spoonful of pasta salad (again, why??), lettuce, 1 c fruit salad. Then, she brought out the brownies... I should have just said no-thank you. But I nibbled. Probably for 3 points worth. And then I was sorry b/c it was too rich/sugary... I'm a little frustrated with myself... it's not the end of the world. It was a good lesson in how little bites can add up. I think the damage is 12 points. So annoying because it wasn't nearly as good as what I ate at the bris--same food, just 3 days older.

I have 8 points left for the remainder of the day. This means no booze at the reception tonight. Not a big sacrifice... I can have a piece of chicken before I leave the house, and some veggies... and I should be okay. Still, I feel kind of gross. :(

Tuesday: 33 min walking

6:30
cereal, milk, berries/banana, coffeemilk: 5

33 min walk

9:45
oatmeal, milk: 4

12:45
spinach salad, few strawberries, mushrooms, red peppers, 1 tsp chopped pecans, grilled chicken, bit of dressing, 1 piece multigrain bread, unsweetened mango iced tea: 8

3:30
yogurt, wheat germ, peach: 3

6:45
2 stuffed tomatoes, few potatoes, 1/2 c peas, 1/2 c zucchini, one cheese ravioli, part of a peach. Wanted to eat more but didn't. I think my dinner might have been 8 or 9 points... which means I went over by a point today. And means nothing else for the night. :( That was the last of the tomatoes... which is good. They are delicious but not a great WW choice. I don't know they are 3 pts each... each tomato has 1/2 c ground beef/tomato/rice mixture with very little rice... and 1/2 tsp sugar sprinkled on teh bottom before the meat goes in. Is that really 3 points?? Maybe 5 pts for two?

Feeling rough

Went to bed a little hungry. I splurged on the bris brunch and so had a 6 point dinner with watermelon for "dessert". This should have been fine. So, why did I feel hungry last night? Also, I'm still having a terrible time falling asleep. I went to bed at 10 but at 11 when Michael started crying, I was still awake (teething, we think). So after soothing him and getting him back down to bed I tried for the 2nd time to go to sleep. I think I finally nodded off around 11:30. This is not good. This morning M got up at 5:30--ugh. And Doug and I were too delirious to remember to let him stay in his bed until 5:45... plus... teething... so, we were up and moving by 6. And I felt rotten. Still, I got some exercise. 13 minutes walking at 3.6 on an incline (treadmill) and then 20 minutes of the hilly parts of my neighborhood.

What's going on, though? I still don't feel quite right. I honestly don't feel that it's about food intake. Maybe water?

I have a lunch out today--farewell lunch for Hannah. I need to figure out what to eat. We're going to La Madeline. Then Wednesday night I have a reception for students visiting the States from my High School in Greece, 6-8 p.m. so you know there will be food. I'll need to eat before I go and plan to avoid the snacks/dinner/whatever.

I hope my energy rebounds...

Monday (Baby bris...): 29 pts, 2 flights stairs

7:00
egg& egg whites, toast, 1/2 c strawberries, coffeemilk: 4.5

10:00
1/2 bagel, 1/2 c chicken salad, 1 c fruit salad, coffee w/half-n-half, 1/4 chocolate chip cookie: 12 (maybe over estimating?? bagel-3; chix salad-4; fruit-1; half-half-1; cookie-3)

2:30 (wow, that brunch kept me full for a long time!!)
chicken breast, salad: 3
peach: 1

4:15
apple .5

2 flights of stairs at work--one around 2:30 and one at 4.

6:30
2 stuffed tomatoes, salad w/no dressing: 6
watermelon: 1

done for the day

Sunday: 29; 50 min walk, push-ups, core and some arm weights

8:30
cereal, berries, milk, coffeemilk: 5

walk/weights

11:00
egg+egg whites, bread, brummel&brown, 1/2 c strawberries: 4.5

1:00
1/2 scone: 3

2:30
yogurt, 1/2 c strawberries, wheatgerm: 2.5

5:00
hebrew national hot dog& bun: 4

6:00
1 stuffed tomato, few bites of potato, salad (no dressing), split yellow pea hummos with little olive oil and whole wheat pita (1/2): 9
watermelon, honeydew (everyone else had ice cream and rhubarb but I skipped it...): 1

went over by 1

Saturday: 28

9:15
cereal, milk, blueberries, coffeemilk: 5

10:30
two bites of chocolate babka (we brought to our friends wendy and mark who had a baby on Sunday): 1

11:30
K-bar: 2

1:30
bread, tuna salad with lite mayo, lettuce, salad w/drizzle oil, 1/2 apple: 7

3:30
apple: 1/2

6:00
corn, chicken breast, salad w/ oil: 6
bites of Michael's dinner: 2

No real exercise today... :(

8:00
lite vanilla ice cream and rhubarb sauce: 4

Friday--home

Today was a blur... here's what I remember

7:30
oatmeal, milk, honeydew, coffeemilk: 6
bites of M's yogurt & fruit: 1

11:30
Bread, turkey, mayo, lettuce; green beans, zucchini; pretzel sticks (3): 8

3:30
yogurt, wheatgerm, blueberries: 3

6:30
2 veggie burgers, 1/2 c whole wheat pasta with pesto, salad with drizzle of oil: 7
watermelon: 1

hmm... only 26 points. Enough left for a little dessert.

but, no exercise today or yesterday. Well, I ran around the house a lot carrying things up and down the stairs... that should count for something!

Thursday 30 pts

8:00
oatmeal, milk, coffeemilk: 4.5

10:00
cottage cheese, fruit: 3

1:00
bite of Michael's blueberry muffin, chicken/mozzarella/pesto salad on foccaia. Ate 1/4 of focaccia and only 1/3 of cheese, salad: 10

3:30
bite of chocolate chip cookie: 1

8:30
salad w/chicken, few fried wonton wrappers, drizzle of dressing: 6
amazing, delicious, fantastic chocolate cake with cream-cheese filling. Modest piece: 5
honeydew melon: 1

went over by 2 pts... totally worth it.

Wednesday

8:30
cereal, berries, milk, coffeemilk: 5

2 laps around the block

10:30
cottage cheese: 2

12:00
seared ahi tuna on bed of coconut rice and wasabi paste--YUM. Ate only 1/2 c of rice... counting it as 4 points. Tuna was a small portion, 4 points? extra for the sesames which were crusted on the edges? Then ate two bites of bread, a bite of Michael's mac and cheese (which was delicious but he didn't eat...) and some of his peas: I think all-in-all it was 10

3:00
peach: 1

4:00
nibble of chocolate pound cake a friend brought, plus nibbles of M's dinner, including one piece of popcorn chicken: 2

walk to the park and back
cleaned out the basement, broke down boxes, carried it all to the curb, carried TVs and computers down from the 3rd floor.

8:00
butterfish leftovers, salad with feta and olives: 5

I think I have 2 points left. I'm going to look for something yummy. It's been a long day and I need a treat.