164: not terrible

I stepped on the scale this morning not sure of what I might see. 164 didn't seem too bad considering how out of control I felt in Chicago. Truth be told, I did not stuff myself. But I ate more food (and more high cal food) than I usually do.

I felt very in control yesterday, despite no food in the fridge when I got home and no exercise clothes at work. I went to TJ after work (while a little hungry) but didn't buy any crap and didn't open anything to snack on the way home.

Michael slept slightly better last night. He went down without nursing, but in our bed with me lying next to him, around 8:30 and slept until 2:30. Then he nursed in bed with us again. I tried to take him back to his crib but he woke up and said "no". So, being the pushover that I am and not feeling ready to deal with crying, I brought him back to bed where we all slept until 5:45. Though this certainly is not perfect, it is an improvement!

This morning instead of exercise I cleaned up in anticipation of the cleaning lady (you know how that is... lots of stuff to put away).

Dinner tonight is chicken stir fry with snap peas, mushrooms, red peppers and bamboo shoots. YUM. I wish I had taken the time to cut up the chicken before I left for work... oh well.

Wednesday food intake

breakfast: cereal w/skim milk, cantaloupe: 5

snack: oatmeal exploded in microwave: 3

20 minute speed walk around the block

lunch: carrots, tiny tuna tin, 2 wasa, apple: 4

snack: yogurt: 2

Pre-dinner snack: whole wheat pita chips: 2
Dinner: chili and brown rice: 7
Skinny Cow: 2

That's 25 points. I was really hungry when I got home so ate the pita chips. They had 3/4 c. white rice (they were out of frozen brown rice at TJ and I didn't have time to actually cook rice). I kind of wish I had room for a piece of fruit, but I'm fine. Not hungry. I got some exercise today, though definitely not enough.

Depending on what happens tonight I will try to do the Shred tomorrow--20 minutes is a good goal for this first week back.

How to bounce back

I feel like everyone else is doing so well at staying focused in control. I have been traveling and up in the middle of the night and not focused at all.

We're home now with no travel in sight between now and Thanksgiving. Still, I feel like my world has been turned upside down and shaken a little. I need to get back on track and I'm not sure exactly how to do this.

I took Indya's advice and made oatmeal with 1/2 water yesterday morning. I really do prefer it with milk, but I'm moving in the right direction. I can shave off a point that way. Eating at home isn't really an issue. There's no fudge, pumpkin pie, double-chocolate cake, pizza, etc. I was tempted with all those things and more while away. Last night my dinner was two scoops of frozen yogurt at the airport in Chicago. It was good. :)

I also need help on the exercise front. I am back to square one. I have not been exercising regularly for what feels like a month. Probably it hasn't been a month (yet) but at least 2-3 weeks.

I'm using exhaustion as my excuse. My foot injury didn't help either. The fact of the matter is that I am tired. And my foot still hurts, more of an ache than pain. But, I need to "get back in the game". I'm a little paranoid that my clothes are tight already. I'm not sure that's true. But, I am afraid to get on the scale.

How is it that I could be doing so well for so long and then have this dramatic stall-out? I guess that's what happens when life doesn't cooperate with your fitness and diet control goals.

I'd welcome suggestions or commiserations...

Sheesh!

Many challenges this trip away. Honey roasted peanuts and cheese and
crackers before dinner. Oye. Ate some. More than necessary but with
the hour change dinner was a lot later than I'm accustomed. Meanwhile,
dinner was pizza and salad already drenched with dressing. Ate two
small pieces and some salad. Two glasses of white wine. Skipped
dessert which was cherry pie.

Today, breakfast appeared to be muffins. Ugh. I ate 1/2 a zucchini
muffin and an apple. Then realized oatmeal was an option and had with
2% milk--only option. Later had 1 pc veggie pizza. Lunch was weird---
can't even get into details why but I had 1 c or less of baked zitti.
No idea what was in it. Declined multiple offers of bread. Drank
water.

Victory was later in the day at pumpkin patch when my diabetic aunt
bought 1/2 lb fudge and offered me some, plus offers from staff of
apple cinamon donut samples. Said aunt had 3.

Dinner was small piece of salmon, green beans, sweet corn and 2
smallish pieces of foccacia. Could have skipped bread but didn't. Now
being offered pumpkin pie. I'll likely have a small piece and then go
to bed. I'm exhausted. M was up 3 times last night.

No exercise today. Except short walk to the park and 2nd short walk
around my aunt's house.

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Not starting off well

No chance to exercise this morning. I really have falled off the
wagon. Eating was ok but not great. Packed cottage cheese to eat at
airport but then got potbelly sandwich as well--whole wheat, skinny
(which means 1/3 less bread), turkey, no cheese. No chips (doug had
some) and water. Snacking on toddler muffins I made for M, just not
conscious enough of the bites and how they add up.

M was also up from 1:30 to 3 last night. But, I packed workout stuff
for the trip. My goal is to get in at least one long walk every day. I
will reassess the exercise situation at home when we get back. I went
from 5 or 4 times a week to 2. That won't work.

Btw, dulles is as quiet as a library. It's a little eerie!

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Driven to eat... nearly

We have been trying to get M to sleep for over an hour--close to an hour and a half. Nada. Doug finally took him in the bedroom to lie down with him. I have no idea what's going on but I'm done. I can't take this. I'm so spent. When I first sat down to the computer I was plotting in my mind what things I could eat. Now I'm feeling mildly calmer and less likely to binge. We are so sleep deprived lately. I don't know what happened to our boy who would plop himself down--wide-awake--to go to sleep each night. What has replaced him is something like a newborn in size 18 month clothes.

Enough!!!! Oy. Thank god there are two parents in this house.

Day 2 of accounting

No exercise today. Well, I walked up 8 flights of stairs once. M was up at 4 a.m. again... too hard to get up to exercise on days like that. Hopefully I'll get in a walk this afternoon (leaving early to relieve Doug who is home with M).

cereal, milk, nectarine: 5
0% fage yogurt: 2
2 pc multigrain bread w/lite mayo+ turkey: 5
pear: 1
salad w/dried cherries and garbanzo beans: 1
2 mini famous amos cookies (they were in the OD suite and I walked by them a few times before I finally indulged. The bad part is that after 2, I wanted more...): 2

1/2 c brown rice, 1 c chili: 6

challah with pear butter, 3 small pieces... I'm sure with this I went over my points for the day... rats.